Tired

If there's ever been a year that I've embraced the introvert inside me, wanting to close the door and shut out the world for awhile, this has been that year .  Though our adoption has progressed positively since our first meeting with the men who denied us to see if they would reopen our case, the time and the energy spent on the process, and then the energy it takes to wait it all out have really taken a toll on me.

Next time (there better not be a next time), I think it might be easier to keep our mouths shut and not tell anyone else we're even in the process of adopting (except maybe a few close people who we know understand all the ups and downs of international adoption).  Truth be told, other people's insensitivity and ignorance of the process may just be the hardest part to deal with.  That's why the movie STUCK meant so much to us.  We finally felt like we were not alone.  We finally found other people in our shoes, walking this long, difficult, unpredictable road.

So, maybe the words of this song are a bit more raw than I'm feeling, but the main message is pretty clear.  I'm tired, and I'm worn.  I'm so ready to get back to Colombia (where I hear it's even more stressful to finish up the process over there), to get our son, and to bring him home so we can enjoy a few years with him before he becomes an adult.  I'm tired of dealing with people that don't understand how tedious and bureaucratic this process is, let alone how unpredictable it is.  It's not for the faint of heart, that's for sure.