I joined my Writer's group about ten years ago, thinking I already knew a ton about writing. Ha. Did I ever have a thing or two (or everything) to learn. I am eternally grateful for them, for all I learned, for the amazing connections I made there, and for the amazing friendships.
To top the night off, not only did I get to see my sweet friend, Regina Stone Matthews, again just one day after she came to my school, but I had another friend join me at the last minute. My friend, Charlotte, used to teach with me at Bullock before she retired a few years ago. She's been writing some life lessons on facebook over the last two or three years that have always inspired and challenged me, but recently her posts have taken on a more devotional tone. I asked her if she was collecting them somewhere for a possible devotional some day, and she commented that she'd love to get together and chat about that sometime this summer. We set up a date next week, and in my mind, I'd already decided that my biggest advice would be to check out the Rockwall Christian Writer's Group. When I realized that this was probably my last one to go to, I asked her at the very last minute if she'd like to join me--and she did! I think she went away pretty inspired. No better way to close a chapter than to pass it on to someone else to step into.
I took two poems to share of things that have been occupying my heart quite a bit but I've had trouble putting into words. Mary DeMuth commented that she always loved reading my poems and that she was glad I brought them last night to share. That meant a lot to me to hear her say that. She's a lot like me in that sometimes poetry is the only way to really express certain emotions and make sense of them. At the end, she gifted me a little pack of her Scripture cards that I'd actually been wanting to purchase. I will treasure them, as I treasure everything I've learned from her.
I’ll Do My Part
A school year is ending
We pack up our things
We empty the walls
We tie up loose strings
We send home awards
Affirm each girl and boy
We cherish the memories
Reminisce all the joy.
But this year felt different
As we ended the day
Knowing they had the luxury
To go back home today.
In two classrooms in Texas
They did just the same.
They awarded their kids
And then terror came.
A perfect storm brewed
While a lonely young man
With pure evil in his heart
Carried out a heinous plan.
A plan of destruction
One could never imagine
In a safe little town where
Many haven’t even been.
First they blamed a teacher
For a propped open door
They’ll also blame a system
Saying security was poor.
They blame the police
For cowardly waiting too long
To rescue those poor children
On the day it all went wrong.
They blame the government
For not passing better laws
They blame the family
Making poor parenting the cause.
So many things went wrong
That could have gone awry that day
So many fingers to point
Saying someone needs to pay.
I look at the shooter
And I wonder inside
Why did he drop out of school
And in isolation hide?
Are there students in my classroom
Who need to know I see
There’s a hurt down inside,
A person they don’t want to be?
Have I affirmed them enough
Have I made them feel secure?
Have I helped them find courage
To face a problem and endure?
In situations like this
With so many people to blame
We can each do our small part
To keep it from happening again.
We can open our eyes
And reach out with compassion
Use our sphere of influence
To put God’s love into action.
My heart still aches on
For families of those who slipped away
Whose kids did not come home
On that unspeakable day.
I think about those children
In the middle of the night
I envision all those teachers
Putting up a frantic fight.
I listen to their stories
And try to understand their pain
They’re on my mind so much
With hopes they didn’t die in vain.
I lock my doors more often
I teach more vigilantly.
But now I look more deeply,
To make sure each child feels seen.
There really are no answers
But I commit to do my part
To see with Jesus’ eyes
And to love with Jesus’ heart.
If I stay inside my bubble
And play the finger pointing game
I might not connect with someone
And then also be to blame.
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