Our plans included sending the boys to camp, taking Juan David to Colombia to see his brother, sending David on a mission trip to Colorado with the middle-schoolers from church, traveling to Pennsylvania to let Juan David meet the rest of my family, finishing up our last bit of post-adoption paperwork for Juan David, teaching a Bible study, camping, and just living up our summer together. We told Juan David that this will be his last summer to just "enjoy" before getting a part-time job to start learning some adult responsibilities (he'll be 18 in November). I looked forward to the summer to just enjoy him and his presence in our family.
Timing didn't work out for our Pennsylvania travels, though, and neither did our plans to return to Colombia to see Julian. Then we started talking and dreaming about going to the beach somewhere. David has never even seen the ocean once in his life yet, so a beach trip seemed appropriate.
Good thing all we did was dream, though, because we can no longer plan out much of anything for our summer. Now we are living through a season of change with unexpected unemployment, so very few of those plans will actually make it to fruition.
Middle School - Castle Rock, Colorado - July 2015
The boys are still going to camp, David is still going on the mission trip, and I am still teaching a Bible study. Plus we meet with the judge this week to get that last piece of post-adoption paperwork signed. As far as our family vacation goes, we are counting on God to show us His plans when it's time. We are at peace. God provided income for the last three weeks, and He has provided enough for several more. If it's taught me anything, it's that I need to just live one day at a time.
I now spend my morning drive each day listening to Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young. Every day she reminds me that God is in control. He pursues me every second of every day, constantly wanting to reveal Himself in a new way. When I worry or fret or over-plan, I miss what God might want to show me or how He might want to express His love for me in the moment. When I spend my energy just trusting Him and seeking Him, I find things to be grateful for in every situation or circumstance.
He always takes care of us. Good care of us. I am expectantly waiting to see all the ways He will choose to do so until Mike finds new employment. It's scary, of course, but every once in a while, a season of change is good for everyone. By June, we'll be seeing a new principal at our school, a new pastor at our campus at church, a new chapter in Julian's life (as he attempts to settle into a completely new area to continue his studies), and hopefully a new job for Mike.
I could fret and let anxiety overtake me, but I choose to embrace yet another season of change and look forward to what is yet to come.